I am facing this Predicament, What am I going to do?..

I have been fretting about this issue for many days.
I don't know what to do..
All of a sudden, I realised something I have never before.
I want to be ordinary, NOT extraordinary.
I want to be normal as in lead a normal life.
I am afraid of taking challenges..
In fact, I am afraid of many things...

I don't want to face stress, having to work overtime.
I don't want to be placed under peer pressure.
I dont want to see attitudes.
I don't want mountains of work
I want to unsaddle my work load.
I am tired, exhuasted
I want to produce results,meeting expectations..
and it's not easy..

I have to make a decision
Time is running out
I dont know to go left or go right
I wish time could freeze right now
At this moment...
But after much conclusion on birthday wishes,
I think I would have to work physically and mentally for the magic to happen
I need to find someone.
A soul mate? Or what exactly is a soul mate?

I need to find a soul.
Someone who would listen to me.
Provide me with guidence if possible.
Someone who would talk to me and
Put himself/herself in my shoes
Someone who would understand me and
Not make judgements about me
I need the right soul..
A selfless individual
Not because of ulterior motives
Not competitions
Or personal benefits
And many many more..

I am still searching..When would you come?

Meanwhile, I am contented with helpful and close friends of mine
Thanks for providing me with the support and encouragement
One of you once apologied to me about not being able to help
when I spilled out my troubles
You don't have to help not exactly by solving the problem
You are actually helping me by listening
and answering my queries and doubts.
Thanks for believing in me.
YOU GUYS are the best

Thanks for giving me sound advices
bring me back to reality
I have to face the problem
With courage and a clear mind.
I know I can do it.
You believed in my abilities and I would too
Thanks for enlightening me.
If you have more, please flood me with them..
I know I won't drown because I would fight my way
With methods and stratagies and most of all, with courage.

I learnt a valuable lesson today
and would continue to do so
when faced with the vissicitudes of life.
I am losing myself I know,
but I would find it back with sheer determination.

I would be strong emotionally,mentally and physically
but at times succumbing to your emotions would be right turn you would make....

Shall I take a step at a time?

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Take a deep breath girl
Take a deep breath
as you walk through the doors..